Friday, November 30, 2007

Sleepless Nite...

28/11/07, Wednesday Sunny Day

Today is a sunny day so far… my mood also as sunny as the day…
I had 4 continuous cloudy & rainy days within myself … today is the first sunny day after 4 days of battle…

History begins…

Xuan Xuan started off with fever last Friday (23/11/07). Doctor said is caused by the blister/ulser in her mouth. She had high fever. Her fever didn’t subside even though we fed her paracetamol every 4 hours. I sponge her with cool water for about an hour, still didn’t work. No choice, I have to utilize my last resort, which is to give her the medicine through backside to bring down the fever just before she went to bed. She refused initially, when she sensed that I’m disappointed with her refusal, she came to me with her shaking body *cause she’s in fear* & requested me to do it gently. Finally, after an hour or so, her body temperature went down a little. Kept checking at her the whole night…

Saturday, 24/11/07 Sunny Day
We missed the playgroup as Xuan Xuan still not in good condition. Since Xuan Xuan’s only having mild fever, daddy decided to bring us to the nearest playground before we proceed with breakfast. Xuan Xuan & Wen Wen running around & playing happily. Xuan Xuan had a whole cheese bun for breakfast! Then we decided to go round our area to check out the available kindy in our area. Manage to visit 2 taska. Nothing great about any of the taska.

Blister in Xuan Xuan’s mouth spread extremely fast. I discovered this when I want to apply oral gel before her nap time. She was complaining about the pain every now and then. I kept telling her that after apply the oral gel, virus will die and will leave her mouth. Then she will no longer feel the pain. She listened & let me apply gel on her lips& tongue.

Sleepless Nite (Part 1)

Sunday, 25/11/07 Sunny Day

Xuan Xuan didn’t have good sleep last night, she cried every 2 hours to complaint about the pain in her mouth with her eyes shut. Managed to calm her down by offering her milk.

Today, we decided to go Mid Valley to replace our faulty digital camera. Xuan Xuan’s fever is on and off…but still she is able to drink milk. *30 minutes to finish off 3 ounces of milk* Xuan Xuan’s condition is getting worse, she didn’t manage to eat anything. No bread, no snack, no sweets…nothing solid at all! I’m extremely worried… Everytime give her water/milk, she will cry & refuse to take. Sometimes I have to encourage her…keep telling her she is brave girl to fight the virus. She can take the pain…Sometimes, I have to scold her…then only she will force herself to drink a little… my heart is bleeding everytime seeing her cry in pain. Today, she didn’t want me to touch her lips at all, hard to apply oral gel… I know this will make the situation worse, so sometimes, I got not choice but to use harsh words… Xuan Xuan, I’m sorry, but I love you deeply. Hopefully you will recover soon.
Manage to snap some photos with my new camera.

Sleepless Nite (Part 2)

Monday, 26/11/07 Sunny Day

Xuan Xuan didn’t have deep sleep last night, she cried even more frequent throughout the night with her eyes shut. Not able to calm her down by milk as I think she must be in real pain, she can hardly drink now. Basically, I can only see her cry in pain with my broken heart, helplessly… let her cry until tired then she went back to sleep. There was one time, around 3am, I gave her milk and I knew she’s hungry *as no solid food at all the whole day* and wanted to drink, but she can’t cause of the pain, she only able to hold the bottle and cry and cry and cry until she fall a sleep. I can’t stop my tears…

Oh… is 6.30am… I have to drag myself to go to work even though I don’t feel like want to. How can I put my heart in work when my Xuan Xuan is seriously ill? What choice do I have? Luckily my husband willing to take Emergency leave to look after my Xuan Xuan. That make me feel better when Xuan Xuan is with her own daddy. Early morning itself, daddy brought Xuan Xuan to revisit the paed. He confirmed that Xuan Xuan is down with Hand, Foot, Mouth disease!!! Oh Gosh!! What to do now? I’m so panic! I almost called my husband every 1-1.5 hour to check on Xuan Xuan’s condition, she drink enough water? She had any solid food? Any fever? Did she cry a lot?? Is she still energetic?? According to the paed, children who are suffering from Coxsackie will take 7-10days to recover. Most importantly must drink lots of water… *In my heart – I was thinking, how on earth you expect kids to drink water with their sore mouth? Even an adult like me can’t take it!!!*

This Monday seems so long to me! Finally reaching 5.30pm, I rushed home at once. When Xuan Xuan saw me, she was sobbing pointing at her mouth. Immediately, I hugged her tiny body! My tears again started rolling… I asked her if she wants anything… She was shaking her head & complaining about the soreness…Wow! Again my heart was like being stab continuously by a sharp knife.

It was not an easy night dealing with sickly kid… Again, patient patient patient is the only way!

Sleepless Nite (Part 3)

Tuesday, 27/11/07 Wet morning, cloudy most of the time.

Today I am on leave to take care of my Xuan Xuan. I don’t see any improvement on her. Disappointed! Arg!!! She kept sobbing and pointing at her sore mouth!

She didn’t let me touch her lips at all, she didn’t even let me see, don’t talk about apply any oral gel. Forget it! I’m having hard time!!!
Look at those white spots…they have grown so big!!!



Enough is enough, I can’t take it anymore, is up to my nose listening to her moan/whimper! I scolded her! Arh!!! What have I done! Guess I must be out of my mind! How can I scolded my dearly Xuan Xuan who suffer so much from her sore mouth? When she opened wide her mouth to cry, I can’t believe my eyes!! Not only she’s having ulser/white spots all over her lips & tongue, her “ceiling” & the “bell” is also full of white spot! Gosh!!! No wonder, she took 30 minutes to finish off 3 ounces of milk!!! I hugged her tightly and kissed her tears off… I kept saying that my Xuan Xuan is the bravest girl around! As expected, tears rolling down my cheek.

It has been 2 days (Sunday & Monday) Xuan Xuan live without solid food. I almost go blank & really don’t know what to do. I finally send her to my mother’s house by giving excuses that I have to clean up my bedroom/bedsheet in the evening about 3/4pm. I think that is for the best… my sister managed to feed Xuan Xuan ½ slice of bread. What a great achievement! Her fever is subsided by now.

At about 8pm, my sister (LeeFen) again managed to feed her bun dipped with milk. I think she drank about 6 ounces of milk this time round… phew… what a relief! That is the last meal she took before she slept at about 9.30pm.

Sleepless Nite (Part 4)

Wednesday, 28/11/07 Sunny Day… continue from the top

She still cried in the middle of the night, and I managed to calm her by milk! A great achievement again! She managed to drink twice (3-4 ounces of milk) middle of the night. Guess she’s recovering!

This morning when I woke up 6.30am, I asked her whether she still in pain. She shaked her head with a smile. I prepared 4 ounces of milk for her before I left the house. *Must take lots of fluid ma…*

I called from office to check on Xuan Xuan’s status. My mom said she can eat now. I felt so light after that. Phew! Guess I can have a nice sleep tonight…

I manage to snap some photo’s of her recovering lips…

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Fast Learner???

20/11/07 Tuesday, Rainy Evening

When I reached home around 6.20pm, I notice that my mom has cooked us “Vinegared Pig's Trotters” (CHU KIOK CHOU) for dinner. This is one of my husband’s favorite food. In order for him to enjoy his favorite food as soon as possible, I decided to pick him up from Bukit Jalil LRT station around 7pm. Since this evening is wet, I have more reason to push myself to start my car for my husband.

I brought my 2 darling daughters & my youngest sister together with me to fetch my husband. Not long after daddy went into the car…

Xuan Xuan: “Daddy, you forget to put on your seat belt.”
*Actually I am very pleased that at her young age she can abide to the safety rule, where as my husband always have those bad habits like not wearing seat belt when travel short distance around our housing area & wearing seat belt when he is driving not before the journey starts.*

Daddy turn around & look at them at the back, to his surprise, Xuan Xuan, Wen Wen & my youngest sister are with their seat belt on.

Daddy quickly grabbed his seat belt & put it on: “Sorry…Sorry… Daddy old already, I forget.”

I raised my voice: “Your daughter can understand safety rule better than you do, what ashamed. Everybody give Daddy a ‘Bu’.”

Xuan & Wen happily: “Bu.”

Daddy naughtily makes his monkey face: “Neh… neh neh neh neh… Neh…neh neh neh neh.”

Then I said: “Daddy, you better behave, since daddy is naughty lets give daddy another ‘Bu’”

Wen Wen quickly answered: “Neh… neh neh neh neh… Neh…neh neh neh neh.”

Me & husband together with my youngest sister burst into laughter.

Nowadays kids… they can really pick up fast. Pick up even faster if it is negative elements…
Now my kids act like my parents & my school teacher like those old days. They always remind me to mind my words & my actions & my behaviors & attitudes.
Oh… what a life! There are always people eying on us. Agree?

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

God is really testing my patient...

Arh…!!! What a day for me! The whole day busy reformatting my PC!


This morning, I already not in a good mood. The history began like this…


I need a camera for my husband’s birthday celebration. Unfortunately, my digital camera “malfunction” at this wrong time. I don’t have much choice left, as I’m not free to get a digital camera before his birthday, so the only solution is to borrow from a friend. Most of my friend already married and they stay quite a distance from me. Borrow from my friend – fail. One not so brilliant idea came up: that is to borrow a digital camera from my sister’s friend who stays in the same area near us.

My sister’s friend is kind enough to lend his 1 month old Lumix camera to me on my husband’s birthday. This is the first time I handle a Lumix camera, I just snap the photos without previewing it, so some of the photos might not turn up good. I love posting photos in my post to add more life to it. So I keep pushing my sister to get her friend to load the photos and burn into CD so that I can start posting my photos in my blog. Haiz… not so lucky, my sister’s friend is also busy with his work, until today, I still haven’t got the photos. That means I can’t post! Ouch…Ouch…Ouch…what a pain! Be patient, Kelly… be patient…wait…wait… wait…

When I reached office, the worst thing happened… I can’t use my PC! It now says: “HARDWARE MALFUNCTION”. When I rang up Dell support centre… they guided me step by step to diagnose my computer…and noticed that my hard disk is the one giving me headache! I almost fainted when the Dell people told me that I have to reformat my PC. OUCH!!! This is more painful! No other choice, I patiently backup my files & reformat my PC again! My whole day gone!

Till today I have not check my email, I have not reply to your comments, I have not settle some of my office work… But the lucky thing is my computer is ready for me to use today! I’m still recovering my documents & still trying to setup my company email account. *Luckily I have good colleaguesss around me who always standby to help*. Hopefully can recover my PC by today or tomorrow, then hopefully I can have back my normal life!

Friday, November 16, 2007

3rd baby for me??? Oh! No!!!

About a month ago I bought 3 bedding plants from one of the nursery near my office *my office quite near to Sungai Buloh – a place famous for nursery* You can have various plant over here (phoenix stem – “tian tang niao”, orchid, cactus, fruit trees, name it… and you can have it).


I also bought 5 small little fishes 2 weeks after the bedding plants.


Since then, everyday I will have to water my plant twice a day & feeding my fishes once a day (sometimes with Xuan Xuan & Wen Wen’s assistance).


Yesterday night, I decided to change my bedding plants from small little pot to a bigger pot as I notice that the plants are growing rapidly and the pot is just too small for them to continue growing.

Softly, I asked my husband to get me 3 bigger pots from Carrefour (which is just 5 minutes drive from my house). Unwillingly, he said: “Now your 2 gals big a little, you cannot see me free. Buy plant, buy fish to give me work. Make a third baby for you, then only you know.”

I know very well that he won’t want a third baby as now we enjoy our life a lot as no need to take care of small baby; wake up every 2/3 hours to feed baby middle of the night, no need to suffer during baby’s teething time, no need to visit paed very other month for vaccination, no need to bend our ‘stiff’ back to teach baby walk, no need bring big bag, small bag when we go shopping etc.
So knowing him that well, I said: “You know I love babies, I don’t mind if you don’t regret”

He quickly took the car key: “Your pot will be ready in 30minutes time.”
I finally manage to locate my bedding plant to a bigger pot. Sometimes we got to know our man well in order to get thing done our way!!! *wink wink*

Pimples... no longer scary

Yesterday after taking shower, just step out from the bathroom. Xuan Xuan on her way to toilet.

Xuan Xuan : "Mummy, why your pimples move to your forehead?"
Think for a while, and I said : "So that you & Wen Wen can kiss mummy’s beautiful cheek & chin lor."
Xuan Xuan : "Mummy, can you ask the pimples to leave your forehead, coz I want to kiss your forehead too."
I bend down and told her : "I will try to talk to them tonight. So you still want to kiss mummy’s forehead?"
Sweetly Xuan Xuan hugged me & kissed my forehead, my cheek, my chin & my nose.

What a beautiful night with Xuan Xuan’s kisses!

Pimples??? Couldn't be botherred!

Wen Wen is not 2 Years Old!!!

Wen Wen’s 2nd birthday falls on a Sunday. We didn’t do any special celebration as my husband doesn’t want to exhaust himself serving guest & kids. So we only bought a cake for Wen Wen.


Look at my Wen Wen’s satisfying face standing in front of her birthday cake!


Mummy wanna wish you well & happy all the times. *Before Wen Wen blow candles*


Sometimes mummy has been screaming at you & worse still smack you when you are being naughty … Is pain on your hands and legs, is even bitter in Mummy’s heart.

Mummy know you are learning hard in every aspects. Mummy too is learning hard each day to be a better mummy in bringing you up the way you want to be. Lets work hard together !!!

Mummy love you forever & will always be with you through good times and bad! *This is for both my Xuan Xuan and Wen Wen*

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

I'm on duty...10/11/07

Simple Craft (Mischievous Mouse with Cheese)

I was on duty last Saturday for Sg Long Playgroup. I have prepared a simple craft for the kids. All you need is color paper, scissors, glue & an A4 size paper.

1. Print the Mischievous Mouse’s eyes, ears, nose & cheese on different color paper.
2. Then cut it out.

3. Paste the Face first on the A4 paper. Then follow by the rest.

Ta da… a beautiful Mischievous Mouse with Cheese is ready!!!

This is a Testing

What to give to Alvin (my husband) on his birthday?

Every year’s October/November, I will stress out sourcing for my husband’s birthday present. Tie, Shirt, Pants, Wallet, Watches, Handphone etc… nothing new, nothing special. This year, there’s a slight different. It all started with an email from Photobook about Merdeka promotion’s deal. The moment I read the mail, immediately it link me to my husband’s birthday present. *Wait a minute, let me check when did I receive the mail* That was 18/10/07.
I am interested on the 30x30 Hard cover Photobook promo. RM240 for the book + free one soft cover book of any size (ranging from A3, 30x30, 21x21 & A4 size of your choice).

Not long after that, I downloaded the software, started to scan the old photos, started to design my very first photobook for my husband. The theme for the book: “Our Journey…Our Stories”. It took me a full 3 weeks to complete the book. Then I uploaded the book on 6/11/07. Quite disappointing when I make the order, the promo is over. Ended up, RM240 for a 30x30 hard cover photobook, no more free softcover book! *heart pain pain*

Yesterday, to my surprise, Anna from Photobook called me and told me that my photobook is ready for collection. So kind of her in assisting me to rush the Photobook once she knew that it is for my husband’s birthday gift on this Friday (16/11/07). Initially, I was quite worry that my photobook might not reach on time as it has been clearly stated on the website “Processing time 8-10 working days upon receipt of payment”. Now timing no longer an issue. What came across my mind were… the design & the scanned photo, don’t know whether they will turn up as expected or what if the photos that I scanned not clear??? $$$ gone… I can’t wait to collect my book!!!

After the long evening in the office, finally I’m at the Photobook shop. With shaking hand I open “Our Journey…Our Stories…


It first talk about Alvin + Kelly’s childhood

We met during our lower six in S.M. Datok Lokman

Our Graduation

Our romantic Trips

Our Wedding

Our Wonderful Accident – Xuan Xuan

Our Greatest Achievement 2005 - Wen Wen

Our Stories Continues…


I am happy with the quality of the photos… even though is scanned. I feel the value of $$$ even without the free soft cover photobook. No more "heart pain"!!!

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

A day before Wen Wen's birthday

I am so lucky to be able to join Chinnee’s playgroup in Sg Long. Thanks to Chinnee for her invitation months back…My family has attended 3/11/07 playgroup session. My sister (Lee Fen) is kind enough to prepare mango pudding & mini cheese tart for the kids. The kids enjoy eating them. Right after snack time, all mummies & kids sang birthday song for my Wen Wen, lovely lovely….
Unfortunately this ‘Big Head Prawn’ mummy make a mistake, I should have brought a birthday cake instead of pudding & cheese tart… then my little Wen Wen can blow candles. Sorry, darling!

After the birthday song, we did lovely Itsy Bitsy spider craft (refer to Jo-N’s blog for detail in preparing the craft).


Look at my 2 gals…they are concentrating in cutting the left over color paper after the craft time. In fact, we have a lovely Animal kingdom visit to replace the normal free play in the first hour. For more detail, please refer to Chinnee’s Blog.

We ended our session with story telling by mummy Ching Sim. I gave out party pack to kids who attended the playgroup. Hopefully they like it!!!

Need your parenting advice

I know I will have to write this down to seek for advice….

I can’t manage my little gal – Wen Wen (2 years old).
She is bold and aggressive and a lots of the time she is in control of a situation.
Whenever she can’t get thing done her way, she will throw tantrum. She will scream & cry & stamp her feet & becomes very aggressive.

For e.g. Yesterday night, we had a ‘water color’ session.



I drew a worm for Wen Wen to color. The darker color of her choice covers the worm’s eyes. Daddy try to draw back the eyes, this little thing agitated her. She started to scream at Daddy. She is mumbling while trying to cover back the eyes with her paint brush.



From there on she seems like very unhappy with her Daddy. When Daddy holds her toy, she rudely wanted to take it back. Daddy refused to give as he feels that we really need to teach Wen Wen the right way to get thing done.

Mummy: Wen Wen, ask nicely from daddy.
Wen Wen attempted to grab it even more aggressively.
Mummy: Wen say “Daddy, can I have my toy please”
Wen Wen started to cry and hit her daddy.
Mummy: Wen sayang daddy and say “Please”
Wen Wen: I don’t want daddy! (She is stamping her feet now)

When I told her to say “please”, she cried and kept saying “I don’t want daddy”.
This continues until daddy played the toy in different manner. Probably this distracted her, and she stopped crying. The moment daddy left the toy on the chair, she quickly ran to the chair & grabbed the toy & started to imitate how daddy played the toy. End of the day, there isn’t any “please” from Wen Wen and she still gets the toy.

I really don’t know how to teach her. Wen Wen is very selective, she only listen to whatever that she wants to listen. Unlike Xuan Xuan, she is very understanding, I don’t have to scream at her, hardly I punish her, she only needs explanation & she can follows instruction.

I’m having headache with my Wen Wen, any mommy have any suggestion to deal with stubborn kid??? Or perhaps I should say an extremely independent kid who has her own mind???

Monday, November 12, 2007

Xuan Xuan's piercing experience - 29/10/07

My sisters have been helping me to “decorate” Xuan Xuan’s ears for a while with those fancy stickers. Sometimes, my little Xuan Xuan will request her ears to be pierced so that she can wear earring like her “siaw yi” (little aunty-my youngest sister). I never thought that I will bring her for a pierce as I couldn’t bring myself to see her screaming in pain. It will be extra work for me to take care of her ears after the pierce in order not to suffer from oozing/pus.

A day before “Kuan Yin Tan”, Xuan Xuan requested again for the pierce. Everybody in my parents’ house encourage her to get the pierce tomorrow (which is 29/10/07-Kuan Yin Tan) except her mummy & daddy. Xuan Xuan keeps asking about the pain and everyone told her that piercing is like ant bite pain. She even pinches me with different degree to check out the pain…

I & hubby thought tomorrow she will forget about the pierce since we only get to see her after working hours as it is a Monday (29/10/07). To our surprise, as soon as we reached home that evening, Xuan Xuan: “Mummy, go eat now else the shop will closed and I will not get the earrings.” I & husband look at each others, speechless…

After the quick dinner, finally we were at the goldsmith shop near my house. After Xuan Xuan chose her earrings, there was another girl about 6-7 years old wanted to get the pierce as well. The lady in the shop told the girl’s mother: “I would suggest you bring your daughter away, else your daughter won’t want any pierce if she sees this little girl cry”. My heart bumping harder after hearing that…holding my breath…

Hah! Xuan Xuan didn’t cry after her first piercing! She looks extremely calm and didn’t reject the second pierce on the other ear!!! Phew…the best thing is all shop attendants clap hands for her bravery when is done… Ahem… her mummy so proud man…

Since then… is more than 2 weeks now… she didn’t complaint about the pain unless we asked her… then she will say “little bit pain”. So far so good! Any mummy out there wanna get your gal/boy a pierce, Xuan Xuan will be happy to share her experience!!!

Xuan Xuan - No Pacifier for the First Time!!! (18/10/07)



After a long battle in the office, finally is time to go to bed. However… unexpectedly there’s another battle going on in my bedroom. My elder gal Xuan Xuan is looking for her pacifier even though she is turning 4 years old in another few months time. Oh…No… we forget to take her pacifier from my parents’ house!!! I and hubby were too tired to go to my parents' house to get it even though our house and theirs is only 10 houses away. As all parents out there expected, Xuan Xuan started to scream & cry & shout & so unsettled. I ignore her initially (probably about 5-10minutes), then an idea just pop out...

Calmly & with sad face, I told her “If mummy go to “gong gong” (grandpa's) house at this late hour, bad uncle could have waited outside and kidnap mummy away and mummy can't come back and you will not have mummy anymore to read you story book, to love you, to guide you....so now you want your pacifier or mummy?” An option offer to my little one… Answered with her sobbing soft voice:"I want mummy..." *sob sob*

This day (18/10/07) was the first night Xuan Xuan sleep without pacifier!!! Xuan Xuan…I’m so proud of you that you are so lovely and understanding at this young age!!! Mummy love you forever and ever!!!

I don't know what word to use to express my feeling at that point of time... but I am so happy that she comprehends at her young age! Sometimes this little little thing can really make your day!!! Agree?


Wednesday, November 7, 2007

Courage to write...

After reading Chinnee's, Jo-N's, Sharon's, Sasha's and lots lots lots of your blogs…

Finally today I have the courage to start one for myself and my family. I’m not good in expressing myself in words… but I guess because of the love to my family, I will try my very best to start up a blog of my own… I will make it a point to write a blog a day (average la coz sometimes could be nothing to write and sometimes could have lots of things to tell) to share my life and my storiesss with all of you.

To my kids… all those growing stories are specially dedicated to you when you know how to read… and hopefully some of these stories will becomes your courage to move on and overcome your huddle(if there’s any) in the future. Mummy and daddy’s experience are for your reading pleasure.


To all bloggers out there.... Thanks to your beautiful, creative, wonderful, impressive stories and photos that lead me to write today!!! Thanks!